Friday, 12 August 2011
Thursday, 11 August 2011
Hi
I've had a nightmarish ten months since I last posted in October last year.
Two days after my last post we lost our baby. I was 20 weeks pregnant.
We had many tests but were never given a reason why and we have had to come to terms with the fact that we probably never will.
Since then I've gone on to have two more miscarriages - both at early stages, but still devastating. We are due to see a consultant who specialises in miscarriages in September so we shall see what becomes of that.
Its heartbreaking to read back that last post. Least of all as it reminds me how naieve I was about pregnancy at that time. I just assumed that when you get pregnant you would have a baby at the end of it - and now I know that is clearly untrue.
It also reminds me how much I've changed in the last ten months - and not necessarily for the good. I'm much more intolerant of people and get angrier much easier. But the whole experience has made me realise that I'm incredibly lucky to have my two boys and my supportive husband - and that knowledge has helped me through probably the worst year of my life.
We found out that the baby we lost in October was a little boy, and I still think about him every day. About the boy he could have been - and the brother he never was to my sons. Every month that goes by I count the months old he should be - and the milestones he would be passing. It still hurts, but you get to a point where noone asks you how you are anymore and seems to have forgotten when all you want to do is talk about it.
Anyway, its been hard to come back here and write this, but I feel like I'm turning a corner and I'm determined to get back to how I was, albeit a slightly different me, but me all the same.
Two days after my last post we lost our baby. I was 20 weeks pregnant.
We had many tests but were never given a reason why and we have had to come to terms with the fact that we probably never will.
Since then I've gone on to have two more miscarriages - both at early stages, but still devastating. We are due to see a consultant who specialises in miscarriages in September so we shall see what becomes of that.
Its heartbreaking to read back that last post. Least of all as it reminds me how naieve I was about pregnancy at that time. I just assumed that when you get pregnant you would have a baby at the end of it - and now I know that is clearly untrue.
It also reminds me how much I've changed in the last ten months - and not necessarily for the good. I'm much more intolerant of people and get angrier much easier. But the whole experience has made me realise that I'm incredibly lucky to have my two boys and my supportive husband - and that knowledge has helped me through probably the worst year of my life.
We found out that the baby we lost in October was a little boy, and I still think about him every day. About the boy he could have been - and the brother he never was to my sons. Every month that goes by I count the months old he should be - and the milestones he would be passing. It still hurts, but you get to a point where noone asks you how you are anymore and seems to have forgotten when all you want to do is talk about it.
Anyway, its been hard to come back here and write this, but I feel like I'm turning a corner and I'm determined to get back to how I was, albeit a slightly different me, but me all the same.
Thursday, 21 October 2010
Handmade tutorial collection #1 ~ For her
Well, I can't believe it has been four months since I last blogged. Far too long. I do have an excuse though.
We found out in the Summer that we are expecting our third child - due in March, so I decided to take a little time out.
The sickness has pretty much gone now and I'm just over halfway through so I thought it was a good time to get back to blogging.
I have so many posts stored in my brain - things I've been mentally filing away, just waiting for the right moment to write it all down.
This is one of the things I've been itching to do. I've been trawling the web and lots of fantastic crafty blogs looking for handmade gift inspiration. I'm determined to make as many Christmas gifts as I can this year, and as I am currently obsessed with fabric I have been searching with a sewing head on. I'm not a brilliant sewer - I'm still a novice, so I've been particularly looking for items that are simple to make but look amazing.
Here is my round-up for the ladies
Beaded Fabric Flower Necklace
Knotted Fabric Necklace
Simple Fabric Scarf/Shawl
Fabric Flower Ring
Round Fabric Pinwheel Necklace
Poppy Boutonniere
Chic Wrist Cuff
Rice Heat Therapy Bag
Patchwork Belt
My aim is to post a list every other day over the coming week - look out for: Gifts For Kids, Gifts For Him and For the home. I'm also planning on finding some gorgeous crochet ideas as well as gifts for kids to make (or help make!)themselves.
If nothing else, I hope to introduce you to some fantastic blogs that you may be yet to discover.
We found out in the Summer that we are expecting our third child - due in March, so I decided to take a little time out.
The sickness has pretty much gone now and I'm just over halfway through so I thought it was a good time to get back to blogging.
I have so many posts stored in my brain - things I've been mentally filing away, just waiting for the right moment to write it all down.
This is one of the things I've been itching to do. I've been trawling the web and lots of fantastic crafty blogs looking for handmade gift inspiration. I'm determined to make as many Christmas gifts as I can this year, and as I am currently obsessed with fabric I have been searching with a sewing head on. I'm not a brilliant sewer - I'm still a novice, so I've been particularly looking for items that are simple to make but look amazing.
Here is my round-up for the ladies
Beaded Fabric Flower Necklace
Knotted Fabric Necklace
Simple Fabric Scarf/Shawl
Fabric Flower Ring
Round Fabric Pinwheel Necklace
Poppy Boutonniere
Chic Wrist Cuff
Rice Heat Therapy Bag
Patchwork Belt
My aim is to post a list every other day over the coming week - look out for: Gifts For Kids, Gifts For Him and For the home. I'm also planning on finding some gorgeous crochet ideas as well as gifts for kids to make (or help make!)themselves.
If nothing else, I hope to introduce you to some fantastic blogs that you may be yet to discover.
Saturday, 19 June 2010
Things I love today
This song - it makes me cry for some reason. I love his voice.
This blog - what a fantastic imagination.
These prints - i love them all.
This book of poetry - my son recently found out that his new teacher in September will be Mrs Butler, I immediatley thought of this book and then, hey presto a few days later I found it in a charity shop for a £1! Brings back lots of good memories.
This book - another charity shop find, Patrick Gale is one of my favourite authors - loved this one.
This blog - what a fantastic imagination.
These prints - i love them all.
This book of poetry - my son recently found out that his new teacher in September will be Mrs Butler, I immediatley thought of this book and then, hey presto a few days later I found it in a charity shop for a £1! Brings back lots of good memories.
This book - another charity shop find, Patrick Gale is one of my favourite authors - loved this one.
Thursday, 17 June 2010
Puff the magic dragon
My littlest boy and I love this song, but my eldest leaves the room when it comes on because it makes him sad.
We particularly love this version by Bonnie Prince Billy and Red.
This track and lots of other lovely songs are on the album Songs for the Young at Heart, it's a fantastic album of well-known and especially written children's songs for grown ups (and kids of course) who like something a little bit different.
We particularly love this version by Bonnie Prince Billy and Red.
This track and lots of other lovely songs are on the album Songs for the Young at Heart, it's a fantastic album of well-known and especially written children's songs for grown ups (and kids of course) who like something a little bit different.
Friday, 11 June 2010
Resisting
I do love bags I have to say - my husband really can't understand why i need more than one at any time!
Last Summer I had a bit of extra money from marking exam papers and decided to treat myself to a new bag. I searched and searched but could not find a bag I liked until I stumbled upon the Ollie and Nic website. I ended up buying three bags for £50 as they had a half-price sale on at the time, and I was gobsmacked at the quality of them when they arrived.
I love attention to detail and Ollie and Nic bags always have it - whether its the funky print lining or the zipper purse included inside. I use all three bags all the time and they are so well made they still look like new.
They're new summer sale started today so I am desparately trying not to look - but it's very hard.
Last Summer I had a bit of extra money from marking exam papers and decided to treat myself to a new bag. I searched and searched but could not find a bag I liked until I stumbled upon the Ollie and Nic website. I ended up buying three bags for £50 as they had a half-price sale on at the time, and I was gobsmacked at the quality of them when they arrived.
I love attention to detail and Ollie and Nic bags always have it - whether its the funky print lining or the zipper purse included inside. I use all three bags all the time and they are so well made they still look like new.
They're new summer sale started today so I am desparately trying not to look - but it's very hard.
Wednesday, 2 June 2010
Trousers (take two)
I've definitely got the bug - have just finished my second pair of trousers, this time for my eldest (5 and a half).
The actual trousers were just as easy to make as the previous pair (the gingham cotton was actually easier to work with), however I did run into problems with the patch and back-pocket.
I wanted to add something (mainly to stop them looking like a pair of pyjama bottoms) and had some brown corduroy scraps from a ruined pair of the boys trousers hanging around. It was an experiment really and I made quite a few mistakes - the main one being not realising that I should have attached the patch before I had sewn up the trousers. I also managed to stitch the front part of oneleg to the back part of the leg (twice!), had to unpick stitches several times and had to dismantle my sewing machine three times due to stuck thread (I think this might have been because of the bulkiness of the corduroy). The zigzag stitches on the patch and pocket are far from perfect but I like the way they look - and they suit my boy down to the ground.
I have to apologise for the grubby grey socks - this boy does not like to have bare feet for some reason.
The actual trousers were just as easy to make as the previous pair (the gingham cotton was actually easier to work with), however I did run into problems with the patch and back-pocket.
I wanted to add something (mainly to stop them looking like a pair of pyjama bottoms) and had some brown corduroy scraps from a ruined pair of the boys trousers hanging around. It was an experiment really and I made quite a few mistakes - the main one being not realising that I should have attached the patch before I had sewn up the trousers. I also managed to stitch the front part of oneleg to the back part of the leg (twice!), had to unpick stitches several times and had to dismantle my sewing machine three times due to stuck thread (I think this might have been because of the bulkiness of the corduroy). The zigzag stitches on the patch and pocket are far from perfect but I like the way they look - and they suit my boy down to the ground.
I have to apologise for the grubby grey socks - this boy does not like to have bare feet for some reason.
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